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Dear Old Friend

Hello Dear Old Friend.

Its been a long time since I posted to this journal. Too long, I believe, since I chronicled the day to day aspects of my life in a public forum. And as all my stories go, things might not have always been good over the last couple years... but neither have they been boring. And that is probably the inscription that will be on my tombstone...

So much has happened in the past year alone I am uncertain where to begin. In fact, I feel that as I encroach my 28th birthday (god forbid!) that I have changed so much since my idealistic days when i first began this journal that my younger self would not recognize me today. Perhaps it is the lasting effects of completely having your life stripped to the bare bones and awaking in your worst nightmare, perhaps its the acceptance of your true self and your finding how deep your strength and endurance goes, or perhaps its just the maturity and wisdom that comes with the loss of youth and beauty. Either way the last few months alone have left their mark.

If I could go back in time there are a few things I would tell myself:

- Enjoy the moment and don't be afraid to take risks. You never know what tomorrow may bring and at the end of the day it is better to go to bed with memories than regrets.
- Don't be afraid to love. You will most likely end up alone at 3am with a broken heart, but as I stated above, at the end of the day you rather have tried and failed than not tried at all because in every failure is a lesson for the future. Just keep moving forward, dear friend.
- You are a much stronger person than you ever realized. Don't worry what others may think or do, no matter what be yourself
- Remember: You are a person who is loved and deserves to be loved. Do not compromise and do not believe the monsters at 3am that tell you otherwise.
- You are blessed with some amazing friends... and some really bad ones that will hurt you worse than you ever imagined. They will sort themselves out.and the Judases and cowards will show themselves for who they are. Just remember that there are your true best friends and there are your golf partners (yes, you will golf). Don't sweat it if not everyone can be your best friend. That's not a bad thing. Just enjoy people for who they are and what they can offer.
- You will learn two things from your corporate experience in finance (yes, you will work in finance): 1) Every action and reaction (or lack there of) has its consequences. So always be prepared for the unexpected as you can tell a lot about someone in how they react in the moment. 2) Everything has its cost. In the end, life is one big cost analysis. So choose your priorities and put your time and money where its going to be the most effective use towards those goals.
- Be patient. Life is full of surprises. Just because something isn't working now doesn't mean that it won't work itself out in the future.
- Take control of your own destiny.  Don't be afraid of failure.  The worse thing you can do is allow the river of life to take you under and drag you along wherever it wants... get yourself a paddle so you can enjoy the adventure.
- Never forget how to laugh and surround yourself by people that will help you laugh through the darkest of moments.

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(Anonymous)
Jan. 13th, 2008 02:27 pm (UTC)
wow, these are really beautiful
thank you for telling them to me, too
thatheathergirl
Jan. 13th, 2008 02:28 pm (UTC)
Re: wow, these are really beautiful
and, that was me. Sorry
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